udah hampir berapa minggu ya? 2 minggu lebih mungkin gue udah kehilangan kakak-kakak gue dari ruang OSIS tercinta. ruangan yang kecil sih emang, gak mewah juga, tapi punya banyak cerita. BANYAK banget malah, kebanyakan, but that's perfectly okay.
it's okay, actually, what's not okay is when there are mass amount of unknown person trying to replace them. life goes on, but with 58 i could never seem to move on.
gimana ya? mungkin gue terlalu sayang banget sama kakak-kakak gue itu, whether they love me back or not. doesn't really matter to me as long as they knew i love them so friggin much much MUCCCCH. lie!i'msupercurious!
bukannya nggak mau ada junior, bukannya ngga mau ada adek, tapi mereka nggak sama dan nggak akan pernah sama  sama kakak-kakak, sama akang teteh semua. bukannya mau nuntut mereka biar sama kayak akang teteh semua, tapi mereka masih.... jauh. beda. banget.
feeling kinda stupid though, have promised myself to teach them and to make them feel the joy and pleasure i felt when i'm still a junior. but here's the reality.... here i am, still missing 58, and avoiding 59.
nggak avoid juga sih... gue sayang 'ade-ade' semuanya, tapi kenapa kalian ngga tau diri....
apa mungkin gara-gara masih di awal aja ya? berapa kali gue ingetin, gue sindir, kenapa masih sama aja ya de?
still in the 58 euphoria, 59 is still a shadow that i'm afraid to be in. wishing this fear fades soon.
really, soon.

cause i could never imagine how my senior high years will be when they graduate,
and how i could face the oh-so-scary 3rd year without them